My Quest is Over...

Well... As some of you may have guessed from my entry "Fuck", my luck with Melanie did not exactly go splendidly... A couple days ago, we were talking and she up and starts talking about her ex. Ok... I can take that. Then she started talking about how much she was still in love with him. Ouch. But it was ok. She said she was moving on. Ok cool... Well, until I found out that moving on meant making out with two guys this week. GAAAAAHHH... I'm sorry! Did this dagger belong to you Melanie! I found it buried in my HEART!

Meh... I mean. This information is horrible. Not only does it show she has no interest in me, but it shows me that she doesn't even want anything long lasting. It's like the best thing I could hope for from her is a random hook up. And that's not the way I want her. I want to take her places. I want to do things with her. I want a relationship. I want to do things that couples do. I want argue about stupid shit. I want to wake up next to her and watch her sleep. But that's not going to happen. No matter how badly I want it to happen, it just won't.

So ya know, whatever. I can go back to scavenging skeezy hos... she can go back to drunken sex with frat boys, and life can resume as usual... the way it was meant to be.