I fucking hate this school

I fucking hate people. It's 2 o'clock in the fucking morning and though I'm not trying to sleep, it would be perfectly reasonable if I was. Can I sleep though? No, of course not. There are over 100 cock sucking mother fuckers at the bottom of my goddamn building (bottom of my building - that's 14 fucking floors down in a building that has THREE elevators that are ALL broken). They are all fucking shouting and screaming and playing in the snow like children. Hey, I'm all up for a little break from classes to perserve one's sanity, but know what helps perserve my sanity? A little peace and fucking quiet when I'm trying to work at 2 in the morning. I don't think I'm being entirely unreasonable asking for a little goddamn quiet. We all know we're not having school tomorrow. Can't the fucking snow ball fights and mother fucking fireworks (fireworks for christ sake) wait until the day time, or even a REASONABLE hour of the night, like maybe 11 or midnight when people are still up, not possibly trying to sleep or do work?

Yeah, so I'm being a whiny little crybaby. I don't give a fuck. I just want some piece and fucking quiet. So I get Wilson to call the police, make a little complaint. I know it won't do anything really useful, but it will make me feel better. Anyway know what happens? The phone just fucking rings and rings. What? A little fucking snow in goddamn New England and the fucking POLICE STATION closes?! Hello, what happens if there's a real emergency? Too fucking bad, I guess. Piss off people, we want to be at home? Real nice.

So anyway, I'm trying to get some shit done, cause I have so much of it...never ending, no matter how much work I do, I always have more waiting for me. Never have enough time to do my work and though I spend every waking moment either in classes, doing work, spending time with Wilson, or some combination of the above, I never have enough time to spend "quality" time with Wilson and give him my undivided attention. It's so fucking aggrivating to feel like you're being pulled in a million different directions, having only one catharsis (who just ends up creating more problems) so having no real catharsis, and to not be able to put some things in the background a little to deal with other shit first. I'm not blaming anyone but myself cause I'm a crazy bitch, all I'm saying is that I'm going out of my fucking skull and Spring break can't come fast enough.

Speaking of which, yes, Pappy, I would like to go somewhere. I need to get the hell away from campus for a little bit. While I can go home, I know that if I do, I'm going to end up going back to my job for a week and though I like my job and all, working isn't really the type of break that I was looking for. It would be money (which I have none of) so that would be nice, but I just need a goddamn vacation. I would like to go somewhere with Wilson to give him some undivided attention and spend quality time, and I would also like it if you came too. Pappy, you're such a great guy and I like spending time with you and Wilson and Caniprokis and everyone. HOWEVER, I don't want to take you away from what you need to do or what you want to do or what would be better for you in the long run. Please go see you doctor and make things better for yourself. If there is anything I can do to help, you know I'm always here. Even if it means helping you jerk off. I'm sure Wilson would understand. ;-)

Thanks for listening, and PS- Pappy, I did read the whole post, like I always do.