I Am The Number One Stunner

You guys (anyone with an account) ought to post more - it's strange not talking to you all.

I got promoted a few weeks ago, which was good - I'm now doing what I came out here to do.

Some of the people who I manage call me "sir", which is disconcerting, since a lot of them are twice my age. Some of them have been at the company as long as I've been alive, which is odd.

When the operation runs poorly, I feel like it's my fault, and end up going home feeling like a fuck-up. Whenever we do well, I feel like an asshole for wanting to take credit, since I haven't really done anything - it's everybody else that is actually doing the real work.

I got into a gaming group out here, playing Warhammer, but I don't think I'm going to keep going to the games. It's just not that much fun when you're playing a RPG with people you're not yet friends with. I guess if I actually spent the time to make friends with the people I was gaming with, it would've changed things, but, ah. When you've stopped playing RPGs for a while, it's odd to go back to a game that isn't competitive. I could probably enjoy running a game.

The first few months I spent out here feel further away in time - farther away from me - than the last few months I spent at school, or last summer back home, periods chronologically before my coming out here. A lot has changed.

Stun