another birthday.........

Well another year has passed and I've been doing quite a bit of thinking. So much so, that I feel I may be going through some mid-life crisis type shit. Although Caniprokis insists that I'm going through some late teen thing, and Lio just repeats that I'm soo much younger than all of you. With that aside, I've realized recently that I'm just simply not as happy as I should be with my life. I'm not generally a miserable person, yet here I give off that impression. I'm not happy with whom I've become down here and I need to rediscover what it was that made me who I used to be.

There are two main reasons why I have changed: One, I am surrounded by upper class frat boy pieces of shit that wear Gucci to Calculus,(and this is a normal standard at my school.....no joke). These kids (big surprise here) I can not relate to, no matter how hard I try, I've been here almost a year and still have not found a way to make more than a handful of acquaintances,(sorry I can't spell). Secondly, I came to this school to earn a bachelor of science, which entails that I'm required to take maths and sciences as well as design and drawing courses. This has left me less than happy with my life,stressed out and craving the chance to spend more time on what I love, my artwork. These two factors have left me exhausted with little to no people to associate with, a formula that leads to unhappiness.

I am leaving Philly, and no it's not because it's a shithole......it has some classy ghettos.....but because I'm going to pursue my design degree in Boston.

After writing all this, I realize that none of you probably give a shit and have most likely stopped reading somewhere in the first paragraph, but fuck you because I needed to sort all that out somewhere other than in my head.

I'm sad that Blood has left us and I wish I had had the opportunity to know him better, but I guess I'll always have filthhole memories. I can't wait to be home and away from this place and see all you guys. Oh, and Happy Birthday to me. hehehe